Focus

I couldn't let another month pass without posting something. Readers, followers and just folks generally interested in what you have to say need something to read. So, I'm gonna really try hard to do just that in the coming weeks and months. Yeah I know you've heard me say this before but I think I really mean it this time. :)
Does that sound like part of an argument? Because it should.
I've debated over the last several months about what my focus should be as Amanda and I have thought over our next steps/goals as a family.
It comes down in many respects to me gaining a focus, a narrower purpose than just existing. I'm interested in so many things, many of them good, wholesome and worthy. But I haven't found that "one thing" or core series of things which energizes, invigorates and inspires me.
I look at those who have and they are much further along in life than I am, many of them much younger than me.
Yes, I understand what we should have to show for our lives at the end is that we hear Christ say "Well done, good and faithful servant." Honestly, I've lived as though this is supposed to happen on faith, that we trust God to place in our hearts the things he's set before us to do and we do them.
But as a man who wants to provide for his family and learn to be more purposeful about my life, I see others who have greater success as a result of being focused at earlier ages and think I've wasted a lot of time. But will earthly success matter 1,000 years after we depart? Mostly likely not.
So somewhere in between my frustration with not sensing a focus in life and trusting it's all going to work out, I think I need to do something toward finding a niche - as a writer, a blogger, a tweeter and a person. Does that mean randomness has no place in my life? But more often than not, I want to find a groove and stay with it for longer than a few weeks.
I think I'm on the verge of this discovery and I can't wait to learn what it is so I can get going on it.
If you have any insight in this or have faced a similar crossroads, please feel free to share it.
I hope my next post sometime in the next few days will be about a significant milestone in my life and I how I faced it. I'm trying to find some of my notes about the experience. If I can't locate them easily, I'll try to work from memory.